this is hannah

[chikguitaristnan]

this is a lil something i wrote a while back.

Forgotten

looking for a clue
left out in the cold
can't breathe, turning blue
not even wanted to hold
no longer needed
swept and pushed aside
everything gone, unheeded
riped apart, opened wide
taken for granted
used and abused
no longer wanted
just totally being refused
gave more of me everyday
take what they could
stole mare away
love me, i wish you would
how could this be?
why do i cry?
life, is what i see
goin on, by and by

[Pwneress]

a bit depressing but really good =P

[chikguitaristnan]

so this is a song a friend and i wrote. this is what i have memorized so i still have to add more. it sounds alot cooler then it reads but i guess thats how it goes...


shoebox memories

its been a long time since ive seen you
wondering if we'll meet again
times changed
ive rearranged with out you
im here with out

Bridge,
barely breathing day to day
standing still but i cant stay
thoughts of you have kept me sane
i wish love would heal the pain

chorus,
cause i cant say good by again
its too much
yeah its too much
no i cant see you crying again
so wont you please come back to me

in that moment i freeze time
cant get passed that look in your eyes

[chikguitaristnan]

Hurricane Ike



wow, what a weekend. i feel like i have been completely out of contact with the world. Hurricane Ike totally flipped my world upside down. my house made it but i had alot of repairs outside. broken fence, a huge tree fell in my back yard and luckly missed my house. the whole city looked like trees threw up. the storm itself was intense. i remember the sounds of the wind... lifting stuff and bashing them against the boards on my windows.. just crazy. while cleanin the next day i found 2 baby squirrels. these poor lil guys were in bad shape. but we took care of them at my house. i am still with out power. who knows how long it'll be before i get it. after all the madness im just glad that we are ok for the most part. i have alot of friends who have lost there homes out on the island though. sad. galveston island looks like its pretty much gone.. well anyway.. i am here today but might not be for a while. anyway.. it was intense..

[Katy]

Glad to hear that you're okay, well for the most part anyway. That was nice of you to help take care of the baby squirrels.

[decadence21]

I'm glad you're okay Hannah.
That sad about your friends losing their homes.
I've been pretty affected by this at work.
We've been super busy with trying to find people hotel rooms,
checking to see if the hotels accept FEMA, and lots of cancellations.
A lot of our hotels are closed to everyone except evacuees and relief workers.
It's nice to know we are able to help in some way.

[chikguitaristnan]

here are some drawings..

pride

a lotus my friend got tattooed on her ankle as a cover up..

this is part of a tattoo drawings also..

it says bc bud and elliot right above it. i remember meeting this guy in the airport who was totally cool and from BC so i did this while working

hannah

smile

my signature Krae-z Kan.. he is tattooed on my leg..

skizo

a mushroom and a fat butterfly.. i got bored

[chikguitaristnan]

my world has just been flipped upside down only to be crushed.
i just got the news on an old friend. we were the 2 gay kids at church and he was such a good guy.
unfortunately something happened with him in his life and he decided to take his life this week.
makes me sad. i dont understand why people do this. i just saw him 2 weeks ago when i went to
visit church. i saw him and my old teacher, who is his mom. we hugged, we smiled, and i asked how life was going.
he said it was going well. he was ok, making it. i guess it went bad all of a sudden. im broken right now.
my heart wishes to bleed for him and my eyes drip sadness, and im stuck at work. i think its time to go home
and get details so i can prepare to go to a funeral this week. this is the second friend this year to do this. i just
dont understand it. im sorry im on here sharing my grief but i just needed to let it out somewhere and being as how im at work this is all i got. well thats that, time to go back to work i guess. i kinda wish i had went ahead and given him the second hug and reminded him that life sucks sometimes but it gets better. right?! it gets better.

[Regan]

[nicolenice]

Hannah I am so sorry. Sometimes people cannot handle life and feel like they have nowhere or noone to turn to even if they are surrounded by a hundred people that love them. Do not blame your self for his problems, he most likely knew you loved him but he was just too sad. I am sorry again. If there is anything you need just let us know

[chikguitaristnan]

tonights the viewing.. i see him one last time. im kinda debating on whether or not to go cause i dont deal well with funerals. its strange i usually dont agree to working late but for some reason i said i would stay til 6 with no hesitation. well i know im trying to avoid it, i guess thats the wrong thing to do. we'll see.