Despair ( Two poems in one)

[Sam]

DESPAIR

So this is what it’s like to be on the edge. AGAIN
I almost forgot what’s its like to feel this way.

NUMB. Just before breaking,
A smile just to make it seem OKAY.

I’ve done well,
having EVERYONE FOOLED
But I can NEVER fool MYSELF.
I try… oh… do I TRY.

It PITIFUL that something so simple
Can break me into a MILLION PIECES.

I’m STRONGER than this,
I been through WORST.

I’m just ready to snap
FORGET IT all
Don’t even worry with GOODBYES
Who will NOTICE when I’M GONE,

LIES
This world is fill with them
And everyone GIVE THEM out like candy
Just to make EVERYTHING okay

ITS NOT…
I HATE YOU…
I HATE THIS PLACE…

I’m the FRAGILE glass that has one too many CRACKS
sh*t WHO AM I to complain
someone is DIEING somewhere

But for me
It’s only INSIDE!!!