I know how that feels its the worst, I too am hoping for another chance at a relationship since it never seems to work out for me, either that or I just have very bad luck. its pretty much both, ( I usually just get dumped) I looked back at my old relationship last year and noticed that I was hurting myself and I felt that I was at fault with having someone that didn't care about me at all. never talked to me never asked me how I was doing when I was going through a hard time, I was being used as a stepping stone and in the end I was the one that was hurt the most.
During that time I listened to a lot of Sick Puppies songs and it got me through the hardship.
I am also very skeptical and hesitant to even try to get in another relationship, Im just worried it will just be a waste of time and effort, I don't want to go through what I went through last year. >.< But its is the New Year and I just have to wait for the right person and be patient, I am glad for New Years because its a new start for people and you never know what might come along. I had a feeling that this year is going to be a great one, not just for me but for everyone!
And you're lucky that you're birthday is not on Valentines Day! My birthday is on that day and I'm not looking forward to it either, Lol ( I got through a very rough relationship last year and Im definitely going to be spending it alone, I have bad luck and always have spend my Valentines Day alone. ) It hurts always being alone on Valentines Day especially when you're not in a relationship ( my older sister is engaged and my twin sister has guys that like her as well and my brother always gets dates but I seem to be unnoticed and end up alone ). But thankfully I can always pretend that Valentines Day is just an ordinary day and just try to make the best of it.
I hope that the new year is a great one for you!
