so lost
Posted: 30 Apr 2012 09:17
I have no idea what to do... I'm in so much pain... hitting rock bottom shame... I feel like I cant breathe sometimes.... I was getting chemo for a while but now they really believe that... I need surgery to save my life... but that it might just save me some pain.... and end my life... the one I love... is making it even more difficult to fight for my life.... it gets harder every day.... I am trying so hard to just gently say goodbye.... but as I'm slipping it becomes more harder to even say a word.... it hurts so bad... some times I want it all to end... for it to cut of my breathing.... for it to finally stop... for this.... to consume me....