uggggh!
Posted: 13 Jul 2008 07:43
Hey all..
I know I'm relatively new to the boards, but you guys just seem awesome... I really don't have anyone in r/l to talk to besides my g/f, and I need advice on my g/f... lol.. ok, here it goes..
We have been best friends for about 6 years now and have been an item for almost a year. She was so supportive of me when I was married to an abusive a**hole of a 'guy', and has been wonderful to me and my daughter. I'm just emotionally drained... I know that she has several medical issues (seizures, lupus, bipolar, depression, etc) and just found out that she hasn't been taking her meds for bipolar and depression... she never told me that her insurance (medicaid) lapsed, so I was under the impression that she was taking them. The past month has been sheer hell... to the point where she asked me to take her to the hospital to be admitted to the psych ward because she was suicidal and was afraid of hurting herself or worse, my daughter. Not intentionally, but she has no control over her actions... I dont know if that is making any sense or not. I know that it's not really her when she's like this, but I'm having such a hard time explaining to her how hard it is for me to act like it doesn't bother me when she starts screaming or crying at me... I love her so much and want her to get the help she needs... it is just so hard for me to comprehend that she's not yelling at me.. I hope I'm making sense. I spent almost 3 years in a marriage where I was screamed at and physically abused, so when she starts to yell, I automatically go back to that time of my life... I'm going to counseling, but I have a long way to go... I just don't know how to tell her that I'm not upset at her, but it takes me a little while to process things and understand that it isn't me causing this. I told her that I will always be there for her and I love her more than she realizes.. I just want her to get the help she needs... at the same time, I don't know what I can do to help her... I feel so helpless.
Ugggh!!!!!!
/end rant.
I know I'm relatively new to the boards, but you guys just seem awesome... I really don't have anyone in r/l to talk to besides my g/f, and I need advice on my g/f... lol.. ok, here it goes..
We have been best friends for about 6 years now and have been an item for almost a year. She was so supportive of me when I was married to an abusive a**hole of a 'guy', and has been wonderful to me and my daughter. I'm just emotionally drained... I know that she has several medical issues (seizures, lupus, bipolar, depression, etc) and just found out that she hasn't been taking her meds for bipolar and depression... she never told me that her insurance (medicaid) lapsed, so I was under the impression that she was taking them. The past month has been sheer hell... to the point where she asked me to take her to the hospital to be admitted to the psych ward because she was suicidal and was afraid of hurting herself or worse, my daughter. Not intentionally, but she has no control over her actions... I dont know if that is making any sense or not. I know that it's not really her when she's like this, but I'm having such a hard time explaining to her how hard it is for me to act like it doesn't bother me when she starts screaming or crying at me... I love her so much and want her to get the help she needs... it is just so hard for me to comprehend that she's not yelling at me.. I hope I'm making sense. I spent almost 3 years in a marriage where I was screamed at and physically abused, so when she starts to yell, I automatically go back to that time of my life... I'm going to counseling, but I have a long way to go... I just don't know how to tell her that I'm not upset at her, but it takes me a little while to process things and understand that it isn't me causing this. I told her that I will always be there for her and I love her more than she realizes.. I just want her to get the help she needs... at the same time, I don't know what I can do to help her... I feel so helpless.
Ugggh!!!!!!
/end rant.
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